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How is it that guys have such a power over girls? At least they do over me. How is it I feel like I’m constantly embarrassing myself around him. Every time I say something to him, I look back and am instantly embarrassed. Its high school, though! Just high school! And he’s just a boy who lives an hour and a half away. Why does it matter? Because guys naturally have this stupid ability over girls. The ability to either make them feel awesome, or feel worthless. Which will it be this time? God its good to vent.

Being a teenage girl, in this day and age, freaking sucks. Guys feel they need to bring you down, just to get in your pants. Personally, I feel like girls need to remember that they are beautiful in their own way. Just like Lady Gaga says. God is perfect. So, why should girls believe they’re wrong in someway, when God made them that way? God.is.perfect. That’s not an argument, that’s a fact. Why would He make something any less than so? True, nobody is perfect. However, we are all perfect in His image, because He created us the way we are supposed to be. That’s it this time. Just needed to vent. Because we are all beautiful. Remind everyone of that<3

i could honestly think of no better title for this. how am i feeling? how are you feeling? cause quite frankly i have no feeling right now. what do you do when you know you’re losing someone but aren’t sure why? and then, you tell yourself you love them but then don’t know if you really actually care you’re losing them. do i care about you? yes. i’m sure i do. but… you’re acting so strange and i feel like every second you’re drifting further and further from me and i have no idea what to do. you called my bestfriend a 2 faced bitch yesterday and i just sat there. i literally did nothing. what am i turning into? so many things are going through my head and i have no idea how to sort things out. i love you. i do. or do i? yes, i’m sure i do. but sometimes… i’m not sure. life is totall bullshit at times and it complicates things. you lie to me. that’s the thing. you lie to me. but i lie too. you’re the peanut butter to my jelly… on most days. when he’s not around. and then when he is i pretend nothing is going on. something is. you’ll never see this. i hope. i love you. i think. life sucks sometimes and i have no idea what i’m doing. now i know how those people feel. exactly how they feel. but you don’t get it, do you?

Why is it that everything changes? Lollipops turn into cigarettes, pop into alcohol, kisses into sex, cooties into… everything else with boys. It’s sad. why can’t we stay young and innocent? why do we have to grow up? innocence is “overrated” yet highly desired. what do you think when you hear “high”? kids think swings. we think drugs. why does everything have to change? why can’t people just be kids again? i mean, yeah, i knoww why. but i wish it wasn’t so. asdfghjkl; growing up sucks. you loose your innocence, and you have more and more problems to deal with. i wish me and everyone else can just go back to the time when the biggest problem you had to face was which crayon to use.